初体验！！

        我又有过我的第一次了！第一次去看3D电影！！The Last Air Bender！电影刚开始时的却让人很震撼！那画面的却像是真的！可是就是有开头有3D效果罢了【失望】 明明是部很好看得卡通，却被cut掉很多！3D效果也非常少！！【愤怒】还收我们戏票RM16！！！ 真对不起其他朋友因为是我介绍他们来看这部电影的～ haiz～ 他们的反应让我很责怪我自己！！【担心难过】
        当天也和他们去唱K！！ 也是初体验！！ 但糟糕的是我很着怪我自己！！ 因为有我在，感觉让他们high不起来！！ 我为什么要这么的糟糕呢？和他们一起唱不就ok了吗？ 但我却默默的坐在旁边看着他们唱！！我知道他们当中有人不喜欢这样像我high不起来的人【扫兴的人】从他们的表情我可以看出来！！ 隔天的行为让我更肯定！！！我很想唱，但我的却不懂我会唱什么歌，不是我不唱，是因为我真的不懂会唱什么，是真的！！！ 我试着和他们融在一起，那天是很好的时刻，但为什么我就不知要做什么呢？？ 为什么？？ 我是胆小？是，我承认！ 但我能做什么呢？ 我害怕！但我试着不显示出来呀！！ 我不唱，被讨厌！我唱，我害怕！
        他们是不是已经讨厌我了呢？ 已有一个我觉得他讨厌我了！！ 明天会更令人讨厌吗？我不喜欢如此的感觉，那天让我觉得他们不会再和我聊天，下马六甲了，因为他们其中一人曾说过：『不要找她【当时不是说我】下啦，带她下又要照顾她，等下她不要这个，不要那个』类似说某人会让他们high不起来的话，他们是否也会讨论说我如此的话呢？我怕他们不爽我，不和我做朋友，我很害怕，那天让我很自责，让我很有一种不能形容的感受！！
        我很怕他们讨厌我，我真的很怕，真的很怕！！！！

I really need your help, Angel~

Angel~ It is a long time no whisper with you, are you mad with me? I really feel so sad these days. I need your help, angel~ What should I do? I so worry for my homework, it so many! I want to suicide sometime, the stress from school, home, even from friends~ I really don't like this kind of life~ Can you tell me what life should I go forward? A simple life? A enjoyable life? I really don't know what kind of life is the best for me!! I have think about it sometime, but I get even more stress for thinking about it. Haiz~ I don't have the strength to suicide, I only want to live by my own life style, I really don't like the stress, I really don't like~ Angel, can you pray for me, to make me have the strength to continue live in this stressful world, make me have the power to face the problems and stress? The next time I whisper to you, I hope I already face all my problems and with a happy and joy soul telling my happy to you~

I want to find someone~

I have some secrets~ I want to find someone who I can trust~ A male~ Friend~ Can keep a secret~ I really want to tell someone my secrets, I really want to~ The secrets make me feel somethings~ Somethings that I cannot explain, it just like a tie in my heart~ A friend can keep secrets and trusted is the one who can untie my heart~ If someone saw this post~ And you think you are the one~ Please tell me and I will interview you~ All my word is true~ Make by my own that really want to find someone to share my secrets~

Many things happen to me~

I don't know what happen to me~ I feel terrible~ So sad~ That I don't know what to say~ I really want to cry~ Cry like a baby~ Like the day I born~ I can feel the time~ It come so quickly~ What should I do? It really so fast! I can't breath~ The time really make me can't breath~ I want my mind to be clear~ I want someone who can wake me up! Tell my mind and my soul that the time really cannot turn back!! But I know~ Time cannot turn back!! But I really can't catch up with the time!!! Why the time go so fast? Why? Why the time just like a knife in my heart? It hurt me!! Make my feel stress and sad!!! I can't win the time~ But I want to make it not hurt me so much~ What should I do?? Can the time just stop for a while?? Why it can't? Why? I feel stress now!!! Am I will be more stress after my school life? If it really~ What should I do? I really want to cry~ Really......

Drawing on Computer~

*左下角是原图*

评一评语吧～ ^_^

Drawing on Computer~

*左下角是原图*

第一次用电脑画图 ^_^ 可以吗？

好担心明天哦～

明天我好怕在学校遇到我的“阿母”啊！！我的美术还没考啊！！很不想考嘞～～ Haiz~~ 不考也不行啊！怎样讲都是考试来的嘛！！Haiz~~ 我的“阿母”就每天问："Fock, bila nak ambil seni?" 很恐怖嘞！！ 那眼睛亮亮的，嘴巴笑笑的酱跟我说，不像是酱麽？

阴气很重～～ 多恐怖啊~~

我每天早上看到她都几怕她一下的咯～ 怕她问我几时要考美术～～ 我都不懂要怎样回答她了咯～～ Haiz~~ 担心啊～～ 好担心啊～～     》——《